Day 122

I have created this blog to keep track of my progress.

My first few videos were too disorganized.


Notes below:

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Organization – Time management

-Excel sheet
    1. Document meals.
    2. Document activities.
    3. Plan day.
    4. Personal notes
    5. Track progress
 
-Achievements today
    1.  Turned off WoW account
    2.  Removed gaming software.
    3.  Went to Gym class and got acquainted with equipment.
 
-Internal thoughts
    1.  Reflect on gaming addiction
    2.  Reflect on self love deficiency disorder
    3.  Connect the two.

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I hope to continue to build on this.

Schedule today:



-E

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