Day 120

Day 132-134 - Conciseness Introduction :              I have been busy working. Dream Log :              I remember fragments of my dreams.               Day 132:  Dreamed of getting lost in a cave.  There are many stalagmites and stalactites.  I believe we were looking for an underground world called Agartha.  Dreams of being sold as a slave and taken to a world ruled by horse-headed humanoids.              Day 133:  A sudden large explosion triggers panic in the city as fire alarms all start sounding simultaneously and people run around screaming frantically in fear of a terrorist attack.  An angry mob of people decide to group up and fend for themselves, cutting down anyone who gets in their way of escape.  Their desperation and fervor turns into bloodlust with the more people who get hurt or killed and soon there is a rampaging mob destroying shop windows and flipping cars.  The mayor of the city declares a state of emergency, as the angry mob manages to outnumber and ove

Day 131 - Finishing the job. Introduction :              Leaving things unfinished is simply not my style.  I was determined to finish the yard today no matter what.  I was also determined to ensure that I get health supplements, a scale, and a laundry basket for myself, because I was tired of carrying my clothes up and down the stairs without a basket.  Self love in practice. Photos today :              Just some things I saw today... Dream Log :              I remember fragments of my dreams.  There were visions of me cutting down spider's nests and ant's nest.  I must have still been thinking about my yard work.  Perhaps I was feeling guilt for displacing (or killing) all of those ants and spiders.  There was a fragment of a dream about driving with the Lady on a road trip and having a good time.  I miss her.  A lot. Changing the way I think :              Sometimes the day isn't very eventful, but we can choose to make things m

Day 130 - Dreams Introduction :              I have always had very vivid dreams.  I remember them when I wake up.  I am a believer that dreams affect our lives in more ways than mainstream science would like to acknowledge.  They've been an important part of my life, because I would dream of things before they happened.  I've dreamed of people that I later met in life who made me feel like I've always known them.  When I was a child, the dreams were a lot more lucid, but I also had childhood innocence.  Nowadays, the dreams and their meanings aren't always clear.  My negative experiences (pain, trauma, hurt) have undoubtedly caused me to throw my guard up with doubt and skepticism toward anything I see in the dream world. Dream Log : 8/25/2018  MORNING :              I was on a journey.  I sailed on ships.  I spoke with merchants in ports and traded with them.  I traveled across deserts with a camels and nomadic tribes.  I slept on sheepskin mats and drank o

This post is dedicated to all of the Fitbit screenshots I have up from Day 120 to Day 129, or August 15th to August 24th in sequential order from top to bottom.

Day 129 - Personal Development Introduction :              After a lot of thinking, I have summed up the courage to do something which will either backfire or it will earn me some much needed redemption.  Sometimes, we all have to do things that we know are right, even if they are uncomfortable.  In the end, we cannot control the actions of others, but we hope that they understand our intent and appreciate our honesty and sincerity. Changing the way I think :              I have blocked out several portions of my day for reasons of personal privacy.  However, there has been a lot of traveling today on my part.  I spent the day going from place to place, exploring many different possibilities for personal development.  I contacted a lot of people that I have not spoken to for a long time, and attempted to re-establish a relationship.  These are things that I fell behind on, but it's never too late to reconnect, provided the other person wants the relationship.  I also saw

Day 128 - Spiritual development Note:  I was too tired on 8/23/2018 to write this entry.  This is being written on the morning of 8/24/2018. Introduction :                  Many of the problems I have been having in life have been the result of spiritual damage.  I have always known I was spiritual.  I have always seen man-made religions and atheism as social constructs designed to keep the population suppressed and mentally chained.  I know that our existence is not meaningless and that we are surrounded by temptation and distractions in our every day lives, especially in the first world.  Of course, when I say that I know there is something greater than mankind to anyone, they automatically group me as believing in God.  This is not really correct, but a programmed response is expected as the result of religious teachings having such an effect on the masses. Changing how I think :                  I have been conversing with a very spiritually open-minded man the last

Day 127 - Making amends Introduction :                  Making immediate and direct amends is part of pretty much every spiritual healing program I know of.  The longer you hold it in, the worst it gets.  The longer you make someone wait, the less likely they will be willing to listen to you.  Freeing the body, mind, and soul of this stress is the best thing I can do for myself.   I do my best, and the rest is up to the powers that be. Changing how I think :                  I spent most of my day walking around.  I clocked in at 8000 steps today, but I think today's goal should be 12500 steps.  I was supposed to meet with my trainer but they told me an emergency had happened - death in the family.  I offered my condolences and wished them the best.  I did ask when the best time would be to contact them, since their mind must be occupied with other things right now.                 So with free time available to me now, I could have skipped on training, but decided I will

Day 126 - Change of format Introduction :                     I removed my videos because I found out the audio did not record properly.  I will be more careful in the future.  I have determined it is not meaningful to have the same content in video as I have in writing, so I will only do video content as necessary (possibly once a week). Changing how I think :                There are days when we have to push ourselves to complete what needs to be done.                             It happened that I didn’t move around much at work today, so I ended up coming home with under 5000 steps.   Even after my tread mill workout I was only at 7300 steps.                 I was going to go home, but I convinced myself to drive back out and finish the 10000 steps on the treadmill at a moderate speed.   As I was completing my workout, I couldn’t help but wonder if I would have been this disciplined to do this a week ago.               I found out there was a problem with my audio vide

Day 125 -   Rewiring Introduction :                  It’s amazing the amount of potential is unleashed when we go from thinking negative to thinking positive.   When I stop wasting time beating myself up, I find there is plenty of more time to invest in building myself up.      Changing how I think :                  I woke up ready to take on the world.   Whether this was the result of exercise or being freed from my previously negative attitude, I wasn’t sure.   What I do know is that I jumped out of bed, did my morning routine, and went to the refrigerator to get my food.    It was the first day of my new meal plan, so when I looked at the two containers of food I had prepared, I could feel hesitance and negativity trying to sway me.   I redirected the thoughts and grabbed a spoon.   I portioned my food and promised myself I would follow the diet strictly.   I wanted change.   I wanted results.   I was willing to try anything.                  My meal plan said I could eat

Day 124 - Changes Introduction :     Change is hard it really is.   We all say we want to change, but change is hard.   It takes time.   And time is really something we can’t afford to lose.   So don’t make mistakes like I did.   If you do, learn from them.   Never repeat them.   You may never get a second chance.   Changing how I think :     After self-reflection, I determined that if I am going to change, I need to go all in.   I don’t want to hide anymore.   All of the things I have been talking about recently are interlinked.   Quitting gaming, self-love deficiency, and internal conflicts.   If I love myself, and I achieve things, I won’t have anything to hide.   I won’t have to fake anything.   There won’t be a need for a cover story if I already am telling a real story worth telling.     So yesterday after I made my video, I went to the boxing gym.   I met a trainer who asked me what I was looking for.   I said I wanted to get fit.   He asked me if I was ready to put in